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1/05/25 - added 50 word ficlets
written for @bathshebas justfics challenge
only cry in the rain
“Do you still dream, Gaspard?”No, he answers. How can I?They arrive on the 21st of May each year. Twelve tear-stained letters, no stamps.He burns them twice, for good measure——into his memory,—onto the kitchen floor.Memories of ash, dreams of gold.“Do you still dream…of me?”
push yourself into my mind
“What's the biggest show of affection you've ever seen from a fan?”Hot tears, red lights, moldy carpet. His dirty white shoe pressed against a man’s crotch, tugging the carabiner with force.“It won’t mean anything…”Glazed eyes, tender. Swollen lips, worship undeserved.“Hurry, Gaspard, they’re—”Sweetness, you’re My everything.
does your husband know...?
She’s not the first.His? Certainly not the last.It’s the eve of Gaspard’s fifth wedding. Xavier stares into his bathroom mirror, flush-faced and tear-stained, love bites exposed on his neck. He yearns for curious hands, desperate and unfaithful.Gaspard looks good in blue.“Promise—”He’s a beautiful liar too.
50 word ficlets
for the 50 words challenge, hosted by @bathshebas.
| title | summary | year | tags |
|---|---|---|---|
| only cry in the rain | they arrive on the 21st may | 2025 | canon divergence, post-breakup, insomnia. post-www |
| title | summary | year | tags |
|---|---|---|---|
| does your husband know...? | she's not the first | 2025 | mutual cheating, angst implied/referenced abuse, unrequited love, hyperdrama (2024) |
| push yourself into my mind | "what's the biggest show of affection you've ever seen from a fan?” | 2025 | oral sex, boot worship, manhandling via carabiners, affection, avd (2011) to pre-hyperdrama (2024) |
oprhaned / archived fics
all pdfs will be sporadically updated.
oneshots
gen, teen & up
| title | summary | year | tags |
|---|---|---|---|
| persona | xavier reveals himself to the only person that matters. based on the prompt "mask" for justober 2024. | 2024 | justober 2024, established relationship, domestic fluff, cuddling |
| our name, in liner notes | xavier reconciles within himself. gaspard follows. | 2025 | getting together, mutual pining, love confessions |
mature & explicit
| title | summary | year | tags |
|---|---|---|---|
| presence | gaspard moves into an old lighthouse, but things are not as they seem. | 2025 | gothic romance, getting together, light horror, weird domesticity |
| against ▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒ | twenty-five year old gaspard auge falls in love with ▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒ | 2025 | character study |
| anti-clockwise metamorphasis | a chapel in southern france. | 2025 | character study, body horror |
| part-time soulmate | xavier wants someone to call at night. | - | violence, partnership, character study, mystery, alternative universe - detective/crime |
b-sides of a heartbeat
a collection of companion pieces to the “kisses of fire" timeline, though each fic can be read separately.
explores all eras.
| title | summary | year | tags |
|---|---|---|---|
| kisses of fire | in which xavier learns some things are worth changing | 2025 | getting together, friends to lovers, abba |
| b-side to your heartbeat | do you feel that ache, my love? it burns, freshly forged. co-written with @nicante. | 2025 | pre-relationship, character study, masturbation, longing |
| hyperphantasia | tis' love that makes the world go round... | 2025 | psychological horror, violence, gore, tenderness |
| rendezvous 16.y | gaspard and xavier take a vacation together | 2025 | - |
not quite canon in this timeline, but feel free to read these as such!
| title | summary | year | tags |
|---|---|---|---|
| push myself into your mind | “what’s the biggest show of affection you’ve ever seen from a fan?” | 2025 | audio video disco (2011) to pre-hyperdrama, manhandling via carabiners, oral sex, boot worship, affection, nsfw. |
femstice fever
it's femstice friday somewhere in the world.